The other day I posted a humorous status about when Christian Mingle called me when in my opinion I was living the single dream ( ice cream wine and Netflix) she had asked me if i found someone and being the person I am I said yes "he's lying in bed with me right now" (referring to the ice cream). I thought it was cute and funny enough to share. Well there where a couple who didnt and thought it was distasteful that I would even joke about a man being in bed with me before marriage. My flesh wanted to cry out and scream are you kidding me, but i reacted in love thanked them for their advice took some in consideration and closed that door. I think this is my biggest struggle (getting accussed when i know/think im right) and man did it use to get me in trouble. Ive really been thinking about the other day and then this scripture was in my devotion today that I just had to share 1 Corinthians 4:12-13a (NIV) “We work hard with our own hands. When we are cursed, we bless; when we are persecuted, we endure it; when we are slandered, we answer kindly. Whattt God answer kindly, i know im right, its not fair, as hard as it God word is always right. Trust me I get so angry when i know im right but at the end of the day ita pride because im viewed as wrong and fear that God wont have my back. Somethings you just have to hang up to dry when others you have to RESPECTFULLY respond. Remember its more important to understand then to be understood. Doesnt always mean agree but take some time to view their point and view on things.

I want to share something on my heart that i feel like someone really needs to hear #1 thing I HATE hearing is hunny your still young, hes out there, maybe its not your time, God has someone special for you just wait. 😐
 I have had the want and desire to get married and raise my 5 kids on a huge farm with a open door policy for their friends since I think I was born 😂. I thought that dream would of came true by now. I then started to believe it was my fault I wasnt good enough there most of been something wrong with me and secretly Ive been letting that dream go. It was untill i really listened to one of my favorite songs (https://youtu.be/qv-SXz_exKE ) that I recently realized I never laid that dream at Gods feet. That dream (although it wasnt bad) had become more important than whatever Gods plan is for me. I want to challenge someone whatever it is that your putting in front of Christ to lay it down at his feet. See i recently became really sad and was spending more time looking for this man then looking up to Christ. I felt like this dream was stupid and God didnt hear me. I prayed Lord just show me you hear me I. Then met a lady who is actually living out my dream and it was then I realized God cares about every detail and hearts desire. He cares about you and hears every single cry. Its okay to cry out to him but remember Gods crying out to you life with him is so much better.